Someone asked me this past week why I haven't written anything in a while. She expressed that she had tuned in to see the photos from my most recent shoot, and was sadly surprised to see that I hadn't written anything. I took her question a lot deeper than she probably meant it. I have been feeling like I am in some sort of mental creative funk. I have so much a I want to write but can't seem to actually make it happen. I psyche myself out with everything that I want to accomplish. There is also one other thing I wanted to be brutally honest with you guys about...
Depression is a real thing.
Actually typing it here to be viewed kind of gives me anxiety. But this is what I am going with, so if you are still reading... here is goes.
When I say I haven't written but not because I haven't wanted to I am literally saying that. There are days I come home and have so many things in my head that MUST get down on paper, but I am so weak willed and emotionally beat down that I just can't make it happen. The sad part is that this state I have been finding myself in isn't the result of those around me. I really feel like I have surrounded myself with people who have been lifting me higher. People who respect my craft and my passion, but also people who have taken the time to get to know me for me. In a way I feel selfish for being so sad sometimes. I just get trapped in my own head, this is what I have concluded.
The Happiness Blog was and still is my outlet for everything I come across in my life. Good or bad, I will reflect it in any way I know how. I feel like people see my social media and follow my life thinking they know. The Happiness Blog was built from pain that blossomed into a passion for a positive life. This outlet has allowed me to come out of some pretty dark places and I am grateful that I have it here no matter what. I just want to thank each and every one of you for tuning in and following along. I find comfort in the thought of the family I have made for myself on THB. The powerful business women, my kickass entrepreneurs, the creatives that surround me every single day, thank you. You guys push me forward and make me so inspired to write.
This shoot was done by a friend of mine at work named Rain. He is truly an artist and is casually effortless. Please enjoy.
Thank you Rain for the AMAZING photos! Book him. Water The People