A Touchbase. @FedorBorodin
When I look back on this shoot I feel a lot of things. It was the day Jae and I planned to get his portfolio started because I was and still am convinced that he should model. We took a trek from hyde park all the way to the seaport to meet a photographer who was only here for the day. He traveled into the city with the intent to shoot some of the cities best, and he only had time for the two of us. The introduction was warm and we were both immediately calmed by his presence.
We traveled to three seperate locations and the two of us switched off, him learning the ropes of being in front of the camera and me just feeling out Fedor and his craft. What I loved the most was his direction and natural eye for the good shots - he also had a killer energy about him that I will always remember.
When I look at these photos now I see the sadness in my eyes and feel small amounts of devastation. I have gone through so much since this day and have made huge strides just to feel ok. I was so skinny here, and literally feel the absence I felt this day - but since I have put on weight, I have ticked a goal off of my todo list, and I have managed to reconfigure the image of myself I have in my mind. I have a hope for what is to come because overall I am in a happier and lighter place. I am grateful for being forced to look back on the growth. I am thankful for the time he took this day to teach and to make us feel comfortable.
I’ve realized more recently how important it is to reflect on decisions made - I am vowing to commit to this thought all 2019.