LA has been... how do I say this?!... MF FANTASTIC! I’m not even sure where to start, I haven’t been sure for days. The truth is, there has been so many things happening I simply cannot keep up with it all. From modeling meetings to outings to exploring the streets of this new place I call home. There have also been a handful of emotional heaps and loads of self discovery happening over here as well. I guess all of this comes with moving to a new place, or so I’ve heard.
To start, a lot of you have been asking and digging for information surrounding a man I was here with initially. To avoid speaking badly or down on anyone I will omit a lot of what happened, but to keep it short... I am now here alone and have never felt more free and inspired. I’ve learned that certain people are in your life for periods, sometimes to teach you something and other times to make you grow. This was one of those situations that did both, and I’m ultimately grateful that I was in a position to overcome it. As you guys have seen on my social media I have been doing more to stay true to me, and more specifically , my sexuality. The year leading up to my move I was battling this very topic. I was in a relationship what I thought would be my last, and I was living a life that I “thought” to be comfortable and fulfilling. But when I truly sat for a second and allowed myself to feel the things I was battling, I realized I needed to explore my heart. I had to lean more into what I felt inclined to do and feel. This is where I found my answer and clarity, which lead me to simplifying my space.
Since I have been exploring, enjoying the sunshine, and simply doing the things that add to my energy on a daily basis. I’ve gone boating in the marina harbor just outside my window, I take daily walks to Venice beach to listen to the waves and take in the sun, I’ve been enjoying the amazing people around me and doing more to build experiences and memories in my new home. Because I feel so open and light I’ve also been able to brainstorm and really write down the ideas I have surrounding styling and my brand image. I have so many things I want to create for both myself and you guys. I’ve been feeling so inspired.
I named this article “light” because I feel like it means two different things in my life right now. Not only am I able to enjoy the sunshine but I have gained a mental clarity that has also made me feel “light”. I am no longer weighed down by the responsibility of taking complete care of someone else. I can now focus on me and do everything in my power to build myself up. Whatever that means. I truly feel that the world is at my fingertips, and I fully intend on using this feeling as a platform for my dreams.
I want to thank all of my friends and family who have talked me through my first two months living here! Your patience and understanding is really appreciated and has honestly gotten me through. I am so grateful for all of love and encouragement I receive everyday. It literally keeps me so motivated.
I gathered some photos of my adventures and left them here for your entertainment. There really is nothing more uplifting in this world than to have the friends I do surrounding me. I am blessed, thank you for making me feel this light.